woensdag 29 december 2010
So how will I be a writer?
zaterdag 18 december 2010
dinsdag 14 december 2010
I have that exact thing now. I saw a dress and I was like, Oh is nice but not fantastic... But In my mind it began to grow and now it is something I have to have to wear this christmas.
Gonna buy it in half n hour though.
dinsdag 7 december 2010
Well oke. Won't talk about things anymore. Only way to get inside my head will be on tumblr.
My big obsessions will still be there [think Bertolf] but this comes first at that time.
Well since I've got my drivers licence I collect CDs to play in the car. Now I've got the Glee volume 1 CD and its awesome.
And then especially this song.
I absolutely adore Kurt.
[And I love how high it is and sometimes I can reach that perfectly!!]
woensdag 1 december 2010
My best Dagmar has this thing for yellow. So the other day when I was outside and it was very very cold, my friend Anna forced me to buy a hat or something. So I bought this yellow one. Because of Dagmar =D
And you know. I love it. And somehow It matches my hair perfectly I think ;-)
dinsdag 30 november 2010
Sometimes I have the feeling that I am going to die. That I think; I will die tonight.
The best example I have is the night I went to muse. I was with my best friend and I really thought I was going to die that night. Not because of Matt's greatness, but because of my asthma. [isn’t that anti-climactic ;-)] I had run fast to get good sight on muse, and it was spring/early summer and the concert was outside on the grass, which isn't good for my asthma either. So I could hardly breathe. Above that, I wanted to enjoy the concert, so I would jump every now and then. I was convinced that I would die. Just that very moment. On the grass during 'our time is running out.'
But after the concert I was still alive. Then I was convinced I would die that night, sleeping. Because I still couldn't breathe. But then again I woke up still alive. Still the very long train ride home was a bitch, but a man bought me tea, and as soon as I was at home I could take my medicines and I could breathe again. Never appreciated breathing so much. And; lesson learned. Take medicines with you every time you go somewhere. [still that summer this same thing happened again, when I left without my medicines. I am sometimes very stupid.]
Then there were more things when I would die, not worth mentioning. [yeah I forgot.]
But last weekend I was babysitting my cousins. And their parents were away till the next morning so I was alone all night. And I heard all these scary noises. So I was all bad ass and thought; 'since I am dying anyway, I might as well take the intruder with me.' So I grabbed a piece of metal which is used for opening the attic, and went downstairs. Of course there was no one, and the cat was making those noises.
And tonight I was thinking I wouldn't wake up anymore because I felt so awful..
I know most of the time I am just overreacting. [except for that time at muse. that was scary.] But lately I am scared about a war coming. Not because I read it somewhere but because I talk about it with my brother sometimes, and I have a feeling about this for a year or more now.
And I know that if war comes, death will follow. And I don't want to die because there is so many I want to do. I want to have babies, I want to live on my own in a great town, I want to be a musician, an artist, I want to write a book. Also If I die now I wouldn't die happy.
I don't want to die during a world war. Let me die during a Muse concert and I will be happy.
zaterdag 27 november 2010
Today I went to a big market with my parents, and my dad had wandered off so I was alone with my Mom. There was a big wall with TV’s, and we stood close to them. Then the theme song of 'Littlefoot' came on, and we were both like; 'Littlefoot!!' Turned around and started watching. Until we noticed we were in a store, and went further shopping.
I feel like saying; MLIA
vrijdag 26 november 2010
maandag 22 november 2010
zondag 21 november 2010
Dobby never meant to kill anyone. Only maim or seriously injure.
vrijdag 19 november 2010
woensdag 17 november 2010
dinsdag 16 november 2010
maandag 15 november 2010
zondag 14 november 2010
zaterdag 13 november 2010
vrijdag 12 november 2010
donderdag 11 november 2010
woensdag 10 november 2010
How old will I be, you wonder? 19. And still very very excited. how pathetic.
But this year I only wish for one thing.
But that is where it stops.
And I know I wont get any of those things I wish for.
Now I will make a cake.
something similar to this cake;
This one I made with a friend of mine for her birthday!!
I'll show it when its done =)
maandag 8 november 2010
Well, I do like new things, but I don't like things to end.
But I know I just have to let go. And let it be. And things like that.
vrijdag 5 november 2010
I will give details in a while, now I have to be busy doing awesome stuff!
How do boys work? ~ tips from someone who should know.
Boys from amsterdam are all the same an explanation.
donderdag 4 november 2010
woensdag 3 november 2010
dinsdag 2 november 2010
Since last June I am taking singing classes. I have them every Tuesday, and afterwards I am allways euphoric.
My teacher, who is just a little older than me and goes to a music school, is the best thing that could happen to me, I think. She believes in me, which I didn't, before. Because no one did.
She is now helping me writing songs. Before I was so hard on myself. Everything was bad, in my opinion, and I was stupid, not making sense. But now she taught me that you don't have to write a perfect song. especially not the first time. Just write 100 songs, throw 99 out, and have 1 beautiful song left.
So today, I finally wrote my song. And it’s not perfect, so I love it, and she loves it too. This is the first time I am really proud of myself. The first time I allow myself to be happy about something I made. And if someone doesn’t like it, I think I can handle that now. So next week we will record it and I'll put it on my blog.
And If you like it, that’s okay.
But if you don't. That’s okay too.
I like it. That’s what matters.
maandag 1 november 2010
We discovered the whole city in 2 days. Went absolutely everywhere. Eiffel tower, louvre, montmartre notre dame, you name it, we saw it. [yay for undergrownds, and nice french people.]
I just re-watched the pictures, and it made me so happy!!
As you can see, my mom is the coolest!!
I left my heart in Paris. Somewhere underneath the eiffel tower.
zondag 31 oktober 2010
Today I went out with my mom, when it was dark, to go look for Hedgehogs.
This other day, I was going home late, and when I walked home I saw two hedgehogs on the street. This was probably the most beautiful and peaceful thing I ever experienced in my life. I don't know why I feel like that about that moment, probably because they are such mysterious creatures..
and this is like the cutest thing ever.
donderdag 28 oktober 2010
woensdag 27 oktober 2010
But it would have been nice to have something to hold. Something to proof it really happend. That I didn't make it up. Because I make a lot of stuff up about you.
I will try to safe you.
I will fix you.
I will fix you.
dinsdag 26 oktober 2010
maandag 25 oktober 2010
zondag 24 oktober 2010
vrijdag 22 oktober 2010
woensdag 20 oktober 2010
I wish I wouldnt Wish so much.