woensdag 29 december 2010

Broken dreams

I always wanted to be a musician. I dreamd about it, wanted to go to music schools, wrote songs.. But lately I've been thinking about that dream. The schools I auditioned at never wanted me, and the songs I write are afwull. So a little reality check and I learned that this is the wrong dream for me. And Its hard letting go. But now I want to be a writer. I think that suits me better. But now I've got this problem. Always right before I fall asleep I make up this great storys. Breath taking I must say. But when I try to write them down it always sucks.
So how will I be a writer?

zaterdag 18 december 2010

Please dear someone who makes decisions about my life..
Let tonight please be like I want it to be.. or at least with one of the outcomes I have figured out. please please please
I feel like I deserve something good for once..

dinsdag 14 december 2010

Do you know that feeling of seeing something in a store and you don't really pay attention to it, and then you go home and it flicks back in to your mind and you all of a sudden want it even though you don't really remember how it looked like exactly? And it becomes some kind of obsession. You go back to the store and see it and it is either worse than you tought it would be, or better.
I have that exact thing now. I saw a dress and I was like, Oh is nice but not fantastic... But In my mind it began to grow and now it is something I have to have to wear this christmas.
Gonna buy it in half n hour though.

dinsdag 7 december 2010


I hate how some people allways laugh away my troubles. As if they are less important than their own stupid school stuff. So I won't talk about them anymore. I will pretend I am the happiest girl alive. I hate how people allways think I'm gonna be oke. That the things I am dealing with are a piece of cake comparing to their problems. I said them so many times so I must have gotten used to it.
Well oke. Won't talk about things anymore. Only way to get inside my head will be on tumblr.

New obsession

I allways have these weeks that I am obsessed to only one song, or one band.
My big obsessions will still be there [think Bertolf] but this comes first at that time.
Well since I've got my drivers licence I collect CDs to play in the car. Now I've got the Glee volume 1 CD and its awesome.
And then especially this song.

I absolutely adore Kurt.

[And I love how high it is and sometimes I can reach that perfectly!!]

woensdag 1 december 2010

We all live in a yellow submarine

My best Dagmar has this thing for yellow. So the other day when I was outside and it was very very cold, my friend Anna forced me to buy a hat or something. So I bought this yellow one. Because of Dagmar =D
And you know. I love it. And somehow It matches my hair perfectly I think ;-)