Death and all his friends

Sometimes I have the feeling that I am going to die. That I think; I will die tonight.
The best example I have is the night I went to muse. I was with my best friend and I really thought I was going to die that night. Not because of Matt's greatness, but because of my asthma. [isn’t that anti-climactic ;-)] I had run fast to get good sight on muse, and it was spring/early summer and the concert was outside on the grass, which isn't good for my asthma either. So I could hardly breathe. Above that, I wanted to enjoy the concert, so I would jump every now and then. I was convinced that I would die. Just that very moment. On the grass during 'our time is running out.'

But after the concert I was still alive. Then I was convinced I would die that night, sleeping. Because I still couldn't breathe. But then again I woke up still alive. Still the very long train ride home was a bitch, but a man bought me tea, and as soon as I was at home I could take my medicines and I could breathe again. Never appreciated breathing so much. And; lesson learned. Take medicines with you every time you go somewhere. [still that summer this same thing happened again, when I left without my medicines. I am sometimes very stupid.]

Then there were more things when I would die, not worth mentioning. [yeah I forgot.]
But last weekend I was babysitting my cousins. And their parents were away till the next morning so I was alone all night. And I heard all these scary noises. So I was all bad ass and thought; 'since I am dying anyway, I might as well take the intruder with me.' So I grabbed a piece of metal which is used for opening the attic, and went downstairs. Of course there was no one, and the cat was making those noises.

And tonight I was thinking I wouldn't wake up anymore because I felt so awful..

I know most of the time I am just overreacting. [except for that time at muse. that was scary.] But lately I am scared about a war coming. Not because I read it somewhere but because I talk about it with my brother sometimes, and I have a feeling about this for a year or more now.
And I know that if war comes, death will follow. And I don't want to die because there is so many I want to do. I want to have babies, I want to live on my own in a great town, I want to be a musician, an artist, I want to write a book. Also If I die now I wouldn't die happy.
I don't want to die during a world war. Let me die during a Muse concert and I will be happy.

Littlefoot is the cutest thing

Today I went to a big market with my parents, and my dad had wandered off so I was alone with my Mom. There was a big wall with TV’s, and we stood close to them. Then the theme song of 'Littlefoot' came on, and we were both like; 'Littlefoot!!' Turned around and started watching. Until we noticed we were in a store, and went further shopping.

I feel like saying; MLIA

I'm gonna walk barefeet trough the snow right now.
Call me crazy Call me weird.

Movielove

You know things are getting better when Noah and Sam are back together.


ofcourse they are fictional, but still the cutest couple in the world.
It's like movielove.

I loved Dobby's shoes.

I hate J.K. Rowling. I hate her for killing dobby. Why? Why did he have to die? I don't care about the rest she killed. [except for mabey Fred.] She can even kill Ron if she wants. [Oh no I did not say that!!] But why the sweetest most loving creature in the world? Why. Why. Why.

Dobby never meant to kill anyone. Only maim or seriously injure.

Blowing trumpets at the wall

Forty times until they fall.


Trying to figure out Lyrics of my favorite songs.

I am in love.

With My Holga







And with most of the people on the pictures =)

Tell me what you think about pyjamas that have bears on them.

I can't stop staring at the world.

I keep on wondering,
What it is, this feeling that I feel.
And why things happen,
And are things real?
Will there come a time,
of better places, nicer faces.
I can't stop staring at the world.
I can't stop staring at the world.

Sometimes I like it straight

Hide and Seek

Spend the whole day playing hide and seek with my cousins.

I love how the french talk

Just watched this movie. It was breathtaking.
If you are going to watch it, take tissues with you.

They never told you there'd be days, like these, like these.

Don't know why, but sometimes fortune changes overnight.

I like capturing men

Happy Birthday to me!

this is supposed to be a gif. but how do I post a gif? =(

You cut me loose so I could feel

So many beautiful music in the world.
Don't know where to look. Don't know what to choose.


What is your favorite music? please tell me.






Bertolf
Beatles
Rufus
Andrew
Miss Montreal
Muse

Everything is better when a cake becomes purple

Result.
well. I knoww It has a hole in the middle. but oh well.

Tomorrow is my birthday. So that means, no sleep tonight.
How old will I be, you wonder? 19. And still very very excited. how pathetic.

But this year I only wish for one thing.
Okay two.
Okay three.
But that is where it stops.
And I know I wont get any of those things I wish for.

Now I will make a cake.
something similar to this cake;

This one I made with a friend of mine for her birthday!!

I'll show it when its done =)

A whole new era

Since a while I feel like a whole new era has begun. Nothing is the same. Really nothing. And for the people that don't know me that well; I'm not a big fan of new things to happen.
Well, I do like new things, but I don't like things to end.
But I know I just have to let go. And let it be. And things like that.

Lots to think about

well, that was a night we wont forget very soon.


I will give details in a while, now I have to be busy doing awesome stuff!



sneakprevieuw;
How do boys work? ~ tips from someone who should know.
Boys from amsterdam are all the same an explanation.
and more.
stay tuned.
;-)

on this stormy night

I just want to tell you to let it be.
go inside your mind and think about the things you love the most in live.
It helps I promiss
♥

I fixed you

With a little help from the photostorewoman!


And all the pictures are crappy. The only kindof cool looking, is that first one I posted.
I like it.
I am happy now =)

All the more reasons to see you this saturday.
♥

I smiled, and you noticed.

Since last June I am taking singing classes. I have them every Tuesday, and afterwards I am allways euphoric.
My teacher, who is just a little older than me and goes to a music school, is the best thing that could happen to me, I think. She believes in me, which I didn't, before. Because no one did.
She is now helping me writing songs. Before I was so hard on myself. Everything was bad, in my opinion, and I was stupid, not making sense. But now she taught me that you don't have to write a perfect song. especially not the first time. Just write 100 songs, throw 99 out, and have 1 beautiful song left.
So today, I finally wrote my song. And it’s not perfect, so I love it, and she loves it too. This is the first time I am really proud of myself. The first time I allow myself to be happy about something I made. And if someone doesn’t like it, I think I can handle that now. So next week we will record it and I'll put it on my blog.
And If you like it, that’s okay.
But if you don't. That’s okay too.
I like it. That’s what matters.

Paris

last year I went to Paris with my mom and it was awesome.
We discovered the whole city in 2 days. Went absolutely everywhere. Eiffel tower, louvre, montmartre notre dame, you name it, we saw it. [yay for undergrownds, and nice french people.]

I just re-watched the pictures, and it made me so happy!!

As you can see, my mom is the coolest!!



I left my heart in Paris. Somewhere underneath the eiffel tower.